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11th February 2007

10:51pm: I love those two.


This weekend fucking rocked.

23rd January 2007

7:11am: http://www.11alive.com/news/article_news.aspx?storyid=90896
http://www.wsbtv.com/news/10816086/detail.html
http://www.ajc.com/news/content/metro/gwinnett/stories/2007/01/22/gwxSWAT0123.html
http://www.gwinnettdailypost.com/index.php?s=&url_channel_id=1&url_article_id=23943&url_subchannel_id=&change_well_id=2

My father killed himself yesterday.
Yeah that picture is [was] my house, and yes I'm the son he let leave. LOL

He woke me up, told me to put clothes on, sent me outside.
Very shortly there after, he shot himself.

The cops are being very nice folks and letting us keep out house until monday by claiming it as a crime scene so those fuck heads who apparently own it now can't keep our shit.
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As my sister later said when most of us were drunk, apparently I was the only one that was probably able to deal with the situation that I was presented with.  She says she woulda freaked and that the other two brothers have 'Bibbness' ingrained in them and would have gotten the other rifles and tried fighting.

I went outside, answered the officers questions, and then heard the gunshot that killed my dad.

12th January 2007

1:57am: Babel fish translations from Japanese of this odd LJ that added me.
You follow Hitler, true purpose of national socialism that now word of popularity and is mutation human intersex to the superhuman level which is called "peculiarity". Eugenic policy of the black order SS where it accompanies Nazis must bring the formation of the superman and the God person. The typical example to disgeniki comes having straight in the textbook of national socialism, is. The ancestor - the Japanese, race and tradition - Japanese and language - (cultural conventional national principle) Japanese of all concepts, namely, these of us Hookes you must verify as the Japanese.
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If we or do not stop race Judean human the fact that the country of the warrior becomes the container!
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Japan which is filled up by Gides of the race Judean person does violence itself on the small Japanese schoolgirl,

Puego.

29th December 2006

5:11am: So really, what the fuck.

Buddy Ed?  Most likely has ball cancer. 

The joke was always that I had it.  Noone else it allowed to be fatally sick.

17th December 2006

6:45am:
Sittin' on my own
Chewin' on a bone
A thousand million
Miles from home
When Something hit me
Somewhere right between the eyes

Sleepin' on a plane
You know you can't complain
You took your last chance
Once again
I landed, stranded
Hardly even knew your name

I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
You and me see how we are
You and me see how we are

All your dreams are made
Of Strawberry lemonade
And you make sure
I eat today
You take me walking
To where you played
When you were young

I'll never say that I
Won't ever make you cry
And this I'll say
I don't know why
I know I'm leavin'
But I'll be back another day

I wanna talk tonight
Until the mornin' light
'Bout how you saved my life
(You saved my life)
I wanna talk tonight
(I wanna talk tonight)
'Bout how you saved my life
(I wanna talk tonight)

29th November 2006

7:11am: +44 has a new album

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, I'll turn away

It's their first, but it's not bad.

I'm leaving with the Army the week after February 14.  Yeah, Valentine's day. 

It's for a reason. :)  I like making good lasting impressions.

26th October 2006

5:56am: I listen to Trust Company. [The old stuff]
I am all you need to know
and I'm everywhere you go
no one can save you now
when it all comes around
And I'm everything you see
and I'm what you'll never be
no one can save you now
when it all comes around

- Figure 8 by Trust Company.  Now they are called Amnity Lane or some crap.

17th October 2006

5:00am: This song is so fucking wrong I love it.
“Alive With The Glory of Love”

When I watch you, wanna do you, right where you're standing…yeah.
Right on the foyer, on this dark day, right in plain view…oh, yeah….
Of the whole ghetto, the boot-stomped meadows, but we ignore that, yeah.
You're lovely baby, this war is crazy, I won't let you down…oh, no no….

No, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you…Hell, no no…
Oh, no…I won't let them take you, won't let them take you…Hell, no no…
No, oh no, no, no….

And when our city vast and shitty falls to the Axis, yeah…
They'll search the buildings, collect gold fillings, wallets, and rings…oh, yeah.
But Miss Black Eyeliner, you'd look finer with each day in hiding, oh yeah…
Beneath the wormwood, ooooo, love me so good…
They won't hear us screw away the day.
I'll make you say:

“Alive! Alive! Alive with love, alive with love tonight…”
“Alive! Alive! Alive with love, alive with love tonight…”

(No, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you…Hell, no no…
Whoa, no…I won't let them take you, won't let them take you…Hell, no no…)

Our Treblinka is alive with the glory of love….
Treblinka, alive with the glory of love! Yeah!

(Ok, speed it up….Go!)

Should they catch us and dispatch us to those separate WORK camps.
I'll dream about you, I will not doubt you with the passing of time….Oh, yeah.
Should they kill me, your love will fill me as warm as the bullets, yeah.
I'll know my purpose: this war was worth this. I won't let you down…

No, I won’t….
No, I won’t….
No, I won’t….

(Alive! Alive! Alive with love, alive with love tonight…)
Hell no, no…Whoa, no, I won't let them take you, won't let them take you….Hell, no, no.
No! No!

5th October 2006

5:59am: Sphere of Influence.
I know people in these countries. [Yes, they know me too.]

United States
Canada
Mexico
United Kingdom
France
Germany
Poland
Russia
Australia
New Zealand
Iraq
Kuwait
South Korea
Brazil
Jamaica
Dominican Republic
Spain
Sweden
Israel
Japan
Guatemla
Norway
Egypt
Ireland.

11th September 2006

4:57am: 33401
West Palm Beach.
South Eastern Florida.

I dig it.

This poison comes instruction free, do what you want, but I’m drinking.

[Mert]

1st September 2006

4:06am: Hrm.
There is no evidence. The charges will be completly dropped in 12-18 months.

In the first month, I've read every book I could find, listened to alotta shitty music, had and quit a not too shabby job, and got a nifty scar.

Then I got an awesome phone call.

Puego. :)

[kv hggnu nkmg jcrrkpguu]


11th August 2006

3:13am: I have nothing to complain about.
This Army hold up thing has really mad for some intresting encounters.

People say wierd things when you are leaving for a long long time. It's amazing having to stick around instead, after hearing all those things.

But, anyways, Paul van Dyk is God.

The show he did on my birthday this year was amazing. Though it's 97 minutes I've listened to it over and over.

2nd August 2006

12:34am: I'm joining the Army. I'm gone in like 2 weeks.


I R Baboon.

22nd June 2006

4:20am: And again
Gone Fish'n.

Redding should be playing in the backround.

3rd June 2006

2:14am: Gone Fish'n.

28th May 2006

4:11am: Yes, I'm drinking.
I'm 19.

I've recently been quoted as having said 'I have no aspirations in life. My only goal is to be happy, and I'm doing a damn good job at that'.

I don't remember saying it, but I'll use it. The more crazy shit happens the more I realize it doesn't affect me at all.

I'm loving it.

June 3rd. The kick off date for a really long summer of illegalness. You probably won't see me much at all, but feel free to call.
Bow before my might. I'll be back in a few months [barring prison.]

21st May 2006

4:05am: It was a fun night. Hung out with alotta people I hadn't seen in a while, and some people I've never met.

All in all I'd say it was worth going.

Party on Tracey.

7th May 2006

12:44am: And then I had a girlfriend.

The unexpected events that unfold in a single week. Start hanging out with someone Saturday night, by the next Saturday you are in an oddly ahppy relationship.

'Ever notice that after you hang out with someone for a long time, all of your perceptions of them change?'

22nd April 2006

4:32am: Edited for content
You seem to be scaring yourself into paralysis.
I know it's hard, but in times like these you need to be confident and prideful in and with yourself. If you don't like yourself, then how are other people going to like or care about you? If you unnerve yourself to shit, how are people going to feel comfortable to talk to you about things? Why can't you? Why won't you?
I've never known you to be like this. I know you to be a confident, attractive man who loves life and thinks/knows that it's worth living. You can't live life if you're going to be trembling inside of yourself without any aim or goal. I know you've felt strongly.

Doubting things doesn't mean that. You're doubting because you're being given room to think too much, Bibb. You're doubting because it is not palpable at the moment. You're doubting because you lack it right now. You're doubting because you're letting your insecurities get the best of you.

If things are meant to be, Bibb, they'll work out.
Keep your chin up, handsome. Things can only EVER get better. You deserve -only- the best. :]

((P.S.- I think the wedding is postponed until this fall/next spring unless I convince him to do it this summer. And I have a Spanish exam in about 20 minutes, but I'm taking this time to give you advice. I must REALLY LOVE YOU!! :D))

[Edited for content. If it doesn't make sense, that's just cause I took out parts that I don't want the general people to know.]

Thank you, Bri. I owe you one.

Bri is awesome. She has given me just about the best advice ever.

I think I'm going to go party now.

<3
And the retarded lyrics of the night are!
[Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin me
Hurry I’m falling]

5th April 2006

4:40am: lakjfl;daskjf;jas!

Fucking... Pogo man.

My last hour and 37 minutes has been the oddest ever. But they were amazing.





Fucking awesome.

[el Puego]

24th March 2006

4:06pm: My Saint Bernard is dead.

MmYep.

20th March 2006

2:07pm: Man, I'm happy.

It might be that I don't spend nearly as much time in Snellville as I should, but it isn't that bad to me.

7th March 2006

7:42am: I took the 405 and drilled a stake down into your center,
And stated that it's never ever been better than this.
I hung my favorite shirt on the floorbaord, wrinkled up from pulling pushing tasting.
You keep twisting the truth that keeps me thrown askew.
Misguided by the 405 'cause it lead me to an alcoholic summer.
I missed the exit to your parents' house hours ago.
Red wine and the cigarettes... hide your bad habits underneath the patio.

27th February 2006

2:24am: Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just where I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

But I'm a lucky man
With fire in my hands

Happiness
Something in my own place
I'm stood here naked
Smiling, I feel no disgrace
With who I am

Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just who I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

I hope you understand
I hope you understand

Gotta love that'll never die

Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my

Gotta love that'll never die
Gotta love that'll never die
No, no
I'm a lucky man

It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my

13th February 2006

4:20am: Hey folks. I realized I haven't been on here for a while, and other than Tracey, I haven't talked to any of you in far too long of a time.

Thus, the end of a useless post.

[El Puego.]

(Bri needs to call me, silly lady.)
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